I Took a Year Off to Recovery From Burn Out, Here’s What Happened

Summary

What mark do I want to leave the world with? How do I make it better? What gift do I want to give to future generations to explore and discover?

I think the fact that I’m not ashamed to post most of my new videos on Facebook is a game changer in feeling better about what I’m creating. I do wonder if I should be making something else more epic that makes me feel like I’m making art. I love making art with my body, but it doesn’t feel like this is the deep and meaningful impact I want to have. It is a moment of peace, but I keep feeling like the digital space isn’t the space I want to connect through.

Yes, there are a ton of great things to be said about the connections we can make online, but shouldn’t they be a means to an end of having in person interactions?

I feel like I’ve both succeeded and failed with my year off, I didn’t really take the year off, but I did pivot to a new form of content creation that I’m more excited about. Hilariously by super immersing myself in mega content posting daily, I have sort of forced my hand: I don’t find deep meaning in short form content and it most likely isn’t the mark I want to leave in the world of making. Yet the experiences I’ve created for myself and the connections I’ve made with others this year has been deeply healing. Is that the retreat I’ve been wanting to have all these years? Having friends who do activities together that are healthy? I may not have found…