Midriffs and Consent

I was brought up in the generation where I was not allowed to wear midriffs or small swim suit bottoms as a child because my mom wanted to help protect me from sexual predators and unwanted attention. I know there’s been a huge push to go away from victim blaming and not focus about what clothes a victim of rape may have been wearing. I’m not trying to blame the victim here, but I’m going to explain my personal hang ups on wearing midriffs and sexy clothing out in public.

I’m an internet model. I have a YouTube channel where I try on sexy clothes (that I mostly would never wear out of the house) and I make 18+ content for OnlyFans and Patreon. I’m used to wearing sexy clothing on the internet, but I still can’t get the feelings of being exposed and even assaulting others with my sexy presence in real life. Yes, I heard how self-absorbed that just sounded. But here’s a mini story to explain.

I’ve been staying at an airbnb where I go out and walk my dog on the premise and may or may not run into my hosts, a married male and female. I dressed myself in something that I later wore for a workout on YouTube live. I liked wearing it because it was hot and the clothes were tiny/comfortable enough. Although I caught myself wishing that I wouldn’t run into my hosts because I didn’t want to assault them with my choice of clothing. I didn’t want to put myself in front of their eyes in a tiny shirt that showed my belly off. I do this on the internet all the time and feel ok with it because people have a choice there, the can scroll away, put their phone down…